Yay! It’s another Throwback Thursday into my past. A continuation from last week where I explained what happened in my life 7 years ago, that put me on my current path.
The year was 2008. I was a year into being a college graduated, working full time at a coffee shop and spending all my free time at a community radio station (all volunteer).
I was still putting out resume’s in hopes of starting a career, but that wasn’t getting me anywhere. By the summer of 2008, I decided to quit my day job so that I could focus on my job search full time.
After months of searching and not getting any further, I went back to my old job. That just made things worse. I felt as if I would never be more than a fast food worker, and that I would forever be wasting my education and talents.
Then in December of 2008, while working the late shift, my store was robbed at gunpoint. The masked man came into the store and pointed the gun right at my face. Once he had taken all the money from the cash registers, he told me to turn around. That scared me. Usually when someone tells you to turn around with a gun pointed at you, it’s over. I remember thinking, this is it, I’m going to die in a donut shop, all because I couldn’t get a real job. Luckily, they just took the money and ran.
After that I began to suffer from panic attacks. I tried to ignore them, but they kept getting worse. One day I collapsed and was rushed to the hospital. The doctor asked me what I thought could be causing these panic attacks. I told them I was going through a quarter life crisis. They laughed, and said there is no such thing as a quarter life crisis.
So there I was, stuck in a dead end dangerous job, with no future, and no idea what to do.
Something had to change though.
More on that next week.
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